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Waterfall

The story which deserved to be mentioned

It was on an early morning when there is cool and winter which are going to be there for some time. I like this part of the year as it gives an adequate moment to summarize the entire situation and its related environment where the wind is cool and wonderful. From the western hemisphere dense to very dense cool winds fluttering all across into the sky, and it does make it more and more simulated environment where every possible related environment is going to touch to its limit.

In the entire arena of hopelessness and possible contradiction all what it makes to the final thinking is all about a clear sky with a complete positive happenings where every possible ideas and also related thinking must go with each of its known facets where the possible happenings is going to turn over into entire arena with the most possibilities of happenings all around into the mind of memory where the significance of thoughts has never ever been concluded with simultaneous happenings.

When the portrait is been seen by me where the lively portrait of innumerable emotions which does creeping into the mind with heavy happenings of all around with a stronger sense of attachment in which the most possible happenings is going to turn over with each other unison but that does not seem to be happening.

The latter part of life is still reeling under the hood and reviving in each of folder like a workable idea of a complete synchronization of facing the movement of parable conformity. The probability of relationships is still missing all among us as the separation part of hidden hindrances which is still yet to be broken as no one knows how this could be the most dangerous part of life and how all these could be a sudden ice break.

Where the mind and the heart does not break into the passive life but the beating of heart is still going on and it is still continuing all over the world with a possible call from the heart beat and the question is being asked to her is still immersing to a unknown path of feelings where no one could ever able to want to evade such happenings.

It seems that both of them have been pretty confident of hearing the beatings and musings of heart where each and every beat is still beating with its possible movement of ideas and the world seems to be at the wrong side and the finding of the dreams is still there but what is hiding inside me they want to see both but what is making the entire situation and the dreams that is still continuing in its path to recovery.

In this way, the dreams go on but the possible flowing of wishes and dreams is still continuing in its motion of ultra slow where life seems to have left a long back. The sounds is still there and is still continues to be one such factor where the imminent part of life is still continuing to be in its path to victory but with each victory the signs and the sounds of defeat is still emerging from nowhere where the path to control heart cannot be undone but the path to wonderful motion is still being able to move back to the most attached happenings where no one could find the movement and the motion is there all over to create a generic situation where the heart beats can be listened from the distance all the way from the distance.

It is the call of hearts, but still no one will be able to understand the motion shift and positive attachment in which the movement of emotions cannot be tracked. The way life is going to a motion shift which can only be mentioned where the trying of mind in which the entire arena where the life is still reeling under the foot of her, but the connection to the life is still not able to solve the mystery.

It is life which has been there for all over into entire arena and in which the entire atmosphere is singing with the tune of attachment of both emotionally surcharged environment with the memories are the still between us and the thought of enchantment and all possible movement can only be there as with me is yours memories which is giving me the most possible energy where the heart is still beating with each spots of movement and the enchantment of yours memories is there in this solitary environment and yours memories are there for me all the time and in this way yours memories are there for all the time of me with you,

I will be there whenever and wherever, yours memories are there with me and this gives me the hope and aspiration where I can continue to be there with yours memories and with yours smile. Wherever, I look at anywhere, yours memories are there with me, with my memories are there, where yours portrait is slowly erasing from my memories and I want to search for the colors of life but what is worrying me that all the while I want to walk with solitary though am not alone with me yours memories are there for all the time and it gives me the enough time to remember and unite all the while the complete illusion of staying with you alone all the time.

Where have you gone, each songs I listened gives rise to feeling of yours presence, and the past roots are still covering my heart, and everywhere I see yours image and anywhere I can found each facets of life with my eyes, and my memories are there and for which I still reeling under solitary routes and the memories of mine is there and it is always there and with it I am still continuing to be there all the time with its most attached and inherent manner.

It seems that you are my dream and I am yours sleep and with unity of this we have become a night of life, and in which we are still there within the life of all of ours and it seems that memories of yours are still reeling under the sweet rivers but it does not keep all these functionalities where we all seem to be the motion ambitions where I know you are thinking about me and want me to come to yours house talk to your parents about you, and what should you speak more about it where the life seems to be going all over with most positive happenings where the most positive happenings is still there among us and this is going to be the perfect dream where we do not even want to solve anything as such.

Memento

In the mean time, the vehicle moves forwards and slowly getting into the national high way road and it is moving with a decent speed, with the holidays in this weekends, plenty of tourists are travelling to see the beauty of jungle and try to enjoy the scenic beauty of the environment. The climate is cooler with the advent of cool seasons. The cool bridge has been traversing through a window pane and it is slowly reaching to her and feeling the real beauty of the season. With traversing cooler winds piercing to the skins and suddenly she feels for wearing cooler garments. She slows the vehicle and gets into one side of the road and then close the window pane and wear the sweeter which was at the rear side of the seat. That sweeter has beautiful memories, which was presented to her by her brother, when he was on his first job assignment, he presented this to her, at that time she had just passed from class seventh and now this gift is like a valuable presentation to her and she wants to keep it for long so that it has to be inside of memories like a memento.

She starts the car, her eyes was full of tears like the burst of rains with continuous pouring, she tried hard to control her emotions but it cannot be as no one can stop the heavy pouring of rain similarly no one can stop her from crying, she is driving the car as well as crying at the same time, she does not want to wipe the tears as she wants it to be flow from her eyes, as with heavy rain the entire area is flooded with water, and even at many times the government cannot wipe this out as one has to wait for the rain to stop and then start the work. Since then after one year, her only brother died of plane crash and so sad that incident was that she had to tale six months to speak of and realize the present day world, but in that suitcase which her brother was carrying in that ill fated plane there is one beautiful doll, for her as she realized that it was the last gift from her brother. Now, after two years of losing his brother, she used to be stay alone sometimes and watching the gifts which her brother has given to her and she was feeling left alone as in the meantime, she is feeling alone as in this world the only person apart from her parents she is believed to be close is with his brother.

She feels that before his death, her brother is trying to convey something to her as he wanted her to be strong and care their parents, and from that she has recovered from that situation and she always sees the smiling face of her brother and want to get the maximum inspiration from her brother and whenever she feels desperate and searching his brother, she always goes alone and drive the road so that with the sounds of winds and the fluttering of birds could be the sign where his brother’s soul would be there and for this she is desperate to see his soul as she is confident that he is watching from somewhere at the place we the mortal person would never ever able to recognize and find it out from the wildest of imaginations. Imaginations are like the sea sand which has been boiled into to make it seem like water into the sands. All these imaginations are impossible, but still the Mirage and the possible memento that are embedded with such an authentic attachment could never ever be imagined on the widest possible front. Imaginations are not like the web browser which has ad blocker installed into it, as all these have been the actual management of persona of panoramic images that has been fused and stitched to give a stronger and possibly the more imaginative view of life. For this, she wants to stay in that imagination and strongly wants to see his brother’s soul and search it out from somewhere as she is sure he would be there crying from a distance and watching her and parents and with this she started crying again.

She has seen many ghost movies and realize there are some patterns when some close relative ghost will like to stay with their family but unable to reach to them due to their death as there is the mortal and immortal distance and what that distance needs to be managed and carried forward with equal ease of mind and heart. Life is like a bubble inside the sea, which has been always attacked through different streams of waves which has been running in and out from sea bed and for this it has to be always aware of unlimited different obstructions, on the other hand the immortal mind is like a wall where every obstacles needs to be stopped and in this manner each and every solutions there but the point here is that one cannot reach to this mortal earth to solve this. So, in order to solve the problem one has to be remaining alive here with proper goal and concentration and situations. It is not like the head and tail situation where the life remains intact but the process of luck changes with time and factors.

She stops crying and now concentrates on the natural situations and surroundings here with plenty of trees at the both sides of roads as she drives past the side way road from the main high way, due to advent of starting of weekend there are many vehicles that has been running as many persons with families has been plucking at the open barricading jungle to have the proper glimpse of animals living there. It is like when doing morning walks and roads were occupied by stray dogs and they will see you at the book as if they had constructed the road and they were asking you why you are walking on this road? This is a tricky, but the same situation and also the similar circumstances that has been leading it to make it not so meaningful objectives. Life is not like the proper way of performance improvement program where one has to time and again find the solution not by asking class teacher or a scholar but one has to found the real answer from her own sense of life as most of the times the life line and the time tracker has been customized and prepared for the life that has been there for the ages. Life is full of uncertainties and one has to prepare and behold it from the wildest of imagination as no one can predict the future. She drives the car and in the mean time the climate becomes much cooler due to the advent of forest and long trees. It is green out here for a relaxed environment and she is enjoying life here just like inside an air conditioned room feeling with a restful sleep.

Sedentary Geometry

It is a sense of joy which he had been with it and is searching for it for prolonged years only not to find it in any corner of the vicinity. Life has not been the same as it is in earlier circumstances, it is a completely, different part of life, with the same scenic beauty is being looked at differently with some different outlook and with some fantastic and interesting phenomena of understanding the real difference from the so called artificial during earlier times. It all changed at the first instance when one can find the real difference of beautiful scenic indigo where the sun comes to loom when there is huge different observation from the devastating part of life.

Where in the earlier circumstances he had to live with as it is when there is the snow and the disdain of life the entire gamut of feeling towards the unknown seemingly there but not that much when he realized the premium importance attached with life where every possible attendances is being seen and observed with perception of real identity that has been galvanized to the core tune of life which has been there for all over place and the thanking reality which is there is seemingly some unsung patriotism where no one can find the real grind of life whenever it is attended to the core tune of understanding.

The same sea beach there at the shore of lining of beautiful sand droned soil where each and every facets is there with same settings but now it is almost a change to him when he sees it with completely different outlook and try to reach out to it as if something is very near and dear to him and try to immerse inside those feeling with a completely different diametric distancing dancing of mind muddled with mere merriment of motherly amusement and wonderfully written life line with lovely loyal literally feeling which are not so far flung but flying with ideas of fly with each iteration of ivory of mind.

The mood of his going towards the mesmerizing manner of mingling ideas probably pessimism from the long Mesopotamian history and try hard to taught him the tinsel feeling of forever satisfaction where the steel and the sand seems to be there for the sun driven shining of momentary salute. When he wearily wins at him and trying hard have the winning moments finds plethora of it without a doubt when the most amazing aspect of his life written in wood as if a new chapter from a already cup driven dreams and now he is chopped with life and dream which will cut his actions into some of the most imaginary and ideal centric observation which can now ire the basic functions of life with sedentary geometry.

In the mean time she comes in and gives him the wildest look with disbelief and for a few seconds the books are lying below the ordinary anticipation and this proves a point of shocking state which cannot be serene more than the anticipated situational antics. What is the point in looking at such lying truths when there is the desert doomsday lying ahead in front of him and he has to choose from the hurting aspect of life as he wants to weathered down the willows to remain calm and gesturing situation so that he would not be well down with sadness and fear?

Whole the world now will never be the normal again, as with every look it is showing the rich benefits of a different attachment with completely different attires and a different behavior which cannot be ignored or idealized to the core tune of thoughts of temples which he has been persuaded with to make it to large and understand it better to the tune of total tranquility. He looks at the mirror to have the glance of his and try to recognize and remember the sole state of his solid thoughts but still running in rags and trying hard to find it but fully not satisfied with all these so called metamorphic mysticism which has been giving the most mammal sort of antecedence with lack of authority and passiveness.

He tries hard to find the history of pending actions of aerobic movements of every person and its related pathetic attributes generated towards the gift oriented attires and for this he has decided to be a completely new sense of look and care and this creates a canopy of change of decisions to follow. The same set of apparels has been changing with times, and the girl which was closer to his chances to see him with interest with plenty of new and innovative eye line making waves of thoughts on to him and trying to convey what has been the real dynamics of distinctiveness which has been there but woefully nor covering with the most weaned and the most will full attributes of life.

He is happy of what has been happening and the history says that the most passionate part of life cannot always be the same again as with the case may be and for this it is essential to have a completely different and distinct part of life with which one should always be the same sort of personality with which some similar situational happenings will be there in all times to come and it is high time to be in content with the coming careful innovations of life with real and amateur softness with silly yet pioneering attitudes making the reaction read guard actions of his toe to smarter the objective with which it has been there for all times to come.

The mere objectives of persona are soon bringing a Pacific specifies towards totality of humanitarian attitude where woos of all antecedents of the preceding prolific at one onus of time is taking a tour of the future of a fast changing and charging of a completely different dynamics. He is realizing the change brought within whole lot of looking at it, he has taken this decision derivatives considering the whole form of elements and he is happy that he is free now of every obstruction of obscurities and in a way he can now advance towards the autonomy of his thoughts which is soon making the way for many such ideas of limits where any calculations or derivatives or permutations and combinations is not going to help at any point of time with slightest of numbering towards the basic change which he is currently undergoing into.

The long drawn problems solved with ease and well managed capacity though he has to suffer a lot for this and will continue to pursue the kind of stars till the sizzling matter stays there forever.

At Chennaai T.Nagar

Puzzle Over

I was in a state of undisputed difficult situation when she said that she knew me, my family, my sibling and yet I am unable to grasp about her, how it can be and how this is happening is beyond my imagination but still I have to solve it all by myself as it is one such puzzle where the origin of it is still not known to me. The girl is new to the class yet she knows me well, and now she asked me about her and I should be saying her tomorrow, and after thinking about for two hours I decided not to waste my mind on these subject where it seems to me that there is no such root to which I can find the real answer to this imminent difficult puzzle.

I reached from school and after two hours decided to go to balcony to watch the horizon, which is very nice from this setting as in this locality where the climate touches beyond zeroes the locality is beautiful and the purple patch of sunset is nice and attractive. I regularly spent half an hour in this open atmosphere so that fresh look at the setting sun is a nice treat to enjoy there, as well as I can find the real path of salvation as from there the sun looks like a big orange and it has been fantastic to watch sun from the balcony.

In between stunning flocks of birds seemingly migratory ones are flying from the vicinity. They are so organized in their fly as it seems to me that something better rocket science they are following there. The movements of there is so organized as the front bird goes in the frontal posture and with due course of time the rest of birds fly in such position that they are constantly being flying with a deep sense of geometry while some agro dynamics in motions in and around them.

The most sizzling part is that all has been flying with a stipulated and are conceived pattern so much so that they never break the sequence of movement from there and has been going with a strong sense of motion and the exact trajectory of their flying is still intact and in control. In the mean time my philosophy as well as my rocket science thoughts broke there like a drop of rain on a person going without an umbrella. It seems predictable yet further it goes on to give the proper and mightiest thought of beginning of a perfect form of relationship with the sky.

All these thoughts abrupt suddenly with a calling of someone from the vicinity, which surprises me, I thought it is one such calling might be ringing inside of my ear, but soon the second call is there and I looked at the right side, from there the new school girl is standing on balcony and waving hands, I am surprised at this, and unable to understand for few moments as I think I am thinking about the puzzle which involve her and that is why my thoughts are moving towards it, soon all these virtual thoughts minimized and cropping into the reality just like the situation where the politicians have to face just after elections and this is the same situation which I have been facing there.

I responds and waving a smile with hands in upside, she smiles back as always plenty of questions in her mind which she wants to get the answer, as she says to me are you dipping in thoughts of what I have been asking you at the school, do you get the answer to this. My answer seems to be no but I says you have given time to me still tomorrow, she smiles and says to me that she is going to reveal the mystery and she said to me that, she is going to reveal the secret now, though she says that no one wins as in friends we will win together, she tells her nick name and from there all my thoughts revolve around in a circle there.

I reach at the reality and from there I can find the real answer to all these, we are friends since child hood, she and me are studying in same school and my parents and her parents are friends and for two years my father was transferred to a different part of the state and now after two years her father transfer to the same locality and due to early age friendship, I tend to forget her face but I knew her by name and also within these two years there has been wholes some change among us and that makes recognition more difficult.

I smiles back and I know both of ours parents also virtually decided earlier that when we both able to stand on our legs as well as attending the age of marriage, we will be marrying each other during that point of time and in order to make this sense happen they never felt to make this secret otherwise after growing up if we do not know about this then ours choices can change with due course of time and for this, even our transfer to this remote city my parents always tries to convey me that I will be marrying her appropriate time and during that time I was in class six and not we both are in class eight and beginning to think like a mature person and also try to know exact meaning of life.

She smiles to me and I smiles back as since child hood the bond between she and me is phenomenal as we know each other that we will be marrying each other at the appropriate time in future and this has been arrange marriage as both of ours parents are friends as my father is class mate and child hood friend of her father as well as my mother is child hood as well as entire academic friend of her mother and they have decided this since child hood and try to bring up both in the similar line so that in the future the bonds among us will be stronger.

I says sorry to her but I say I know yours nick name and always thinks about how you would be doing so and so but in these two to three years everything seems to be changing physically and that is the reason for this, she smiles and says to me she is reaching to my home with a nice recipe she is learning from her mother, as this is not going to distract my parents as they want we both live happily from now on. She says drops down to stairs slowly I smile back and then mom asks me where you are going;

I say she is coming, mom smiles as she knew about this as this incident is told to her by her mother as both are very good friends and she goes into the kitchen and also says to me that give some chocolates to her which is sent by my maternal uncle from self and it is there at the self of dining room. Within few minutes she reaches home, and she smiles back and seat on the single sofa as I am seating on a double sofa just right to her, she gets up and then seat beside me as usual since child hood she always stays with me like friend forever and she always seats almost near to me as we are both acquainted with ourselves, she ask me to call my little sister, who is roaming around mom who is inside kitchen and then she herself goes there and calls her and greets mom and little sister happily comes and seat and then we both eat the curry she cooks for us and then I give her chocolates from self, my sister always feel at home and happy in seeing her.

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