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Footsteps Of Flashbacks And Love – How They Are The Same

There is something out there which is still not being known and the finding out such the state of affairs has always been the most difficult processes to expect and finding out the real meaning behind all such tremendous achievements and anticipations to remain inside different viable and alternative units that has been inhibited upon to think about the flashback which still haunts like everything else to find out what has been left over and what needs to be done to make it happen and make it the most dynamic forms of understanding of what  that meant to achieve or perceive it to perform to its best of abilities.

When such microscopic look at these substances continues to guide and continue to be looked upon from time to time it also suggests how such an inevitability of understanding of all these specific and monolithic structures intends to provide and highlight of how such an expected of making entire form of life could have been much better with due course of time where every form of understanding just moves towards making it better with time.

Or is it the worst of its kind where with due course of time entire reflection of life and its pervasive understanding have been making it the most undesired forms and price of patience to understand that life could not be there but still exists like that of the strains of times and continues to be there but the probability of catching it up with due course of time has always been the most difficult form of passion that cannot be taken into its forms and passions that at its current form of understandings. The form of life comes into open when there is the life and its forms of embodiment is there and most of times understanding it makes it the most viable and understanding path of provision where life always search for meanings of life and continues to find its best ways to match it out and the entire focus of its understanding has been the best of most of its passionate makers where every form of understanding just concludes with the same path as that of yours life has always been.

The cause of life has always been at the same set up cross roads as ever it has been always intended to. The shadows has always been with it but the life has not been there and how come such life and its presence should be calculated in its fullest manner where the reasons for living has not always been at the same point of crossroads and for me living the life in these circumstances has always present the forms of anticipations where the movement of anticipated path towards reaching of goals has always been aimless and the process of life has always been dimmed into the state of extreme darkness where every positive anticipations seems to be moved towards the path of extreme unknown entity. It seems the movement towards the unknown still has its own form of identification but still being unable to understand where it goes as the entire forms of movements and its corresponding ideas just been dimmed into the state of utter darknesses.

In searching for the present upon the conquest path of past it does seem to suggest that all these are past and gone and reviving it cannot be ever be happened at any point in time. It is the reporting of time that has been the same all over everytime but the moments are used for some one and when it just awakes from it and tend to find the time duration just left from the past and it hurts in thinking about it and most probably the motionary presence of all these just make it thinking of it and with due course of time time is running out and the movement of self possession is just been moving into the state of complete anonymity. What should be the name of this story as it continues to be in the state of half built truth and it continues to be in this state of complete stealthiness and does provide awesome explanations to be true to its senses but still the reason behind this has not been known in its complete truthfulness.

It is the sole search for truth and for searching for life slowly reaching to its ultimate destination towards moving beyond the life. It is the source of life that has been making us tilt towards understanding the different aspects of life that could have been the real passionate to think about and real underestimate of thoughts which move towards the ultimate and pathetic destination. It only the search for single happiness that has been going on for some time but just see the amount of difficulties, stresses and sadnesses that has been coming and crippling upon and making us to understand how such a state of extreme anonymity is just moving out from all sources of exact anticipations. It is more towards moving into the path of life that has never ever been supposed to reach at this state of extinction. It is the sheer path of joy which has been anticipated but the real path towards extreme possibilities has never ever happened and instead move towards the sense of loneliness and most possible extremely dire circumstances.

More thinking about the more comes out more and more loneliness and the state of extreme shadows which seems to be detached from the state of personalities which makes an understanding of life and its related environments towards extreme possible perfection anticipation. All these seems to be part and parcel of life where even forgetting everything seems to provide the most difficult part and with due course of time with the advent of extreme understanding and possible and marvelous movement of making it happen provides the most possible ways to understand it in its widest form of managing ideas. It seems life is one among each other but still one cannot find the second half of life where the all possible pain of yours as well as the freedom to understand life has made it single most understanding aspect of making it wonderfully managed the most anticipated movements where everything that needs to be carefully considered must be seen with overhaul look and passion.

Can all these be seemingly moving towards the perfection of leaving behind which seems to be not the state of processing of movement right of now but can it be still continues to provide awesome and exemplify anticipation of managing the thought processes which needs to be stopped at some point of time so much so that with due course of time the movement of day or night seemingly the so much of same as that of now it is perceived to be and continue to find the more and more scale of absolute blank reasoning to find everything perfect in this mortal world. How can that be and how can all these tend to lead towards the most possible leading towards finding the ultimate truth which has never ever be seen in its truth of color and slowly moving towards the ultimate path of regeneration of movements where every possible steps forward just makes the feel of absolute denouncement to see and perceive what is most anticipated and reached to be seen in its complete enchanting presence.

Rourkela Musings

This post was most recently updated on April 4th, 2019

I was completely surprised when I decided to meet fellow class students after 25 years. Plenty of waters have flown into the rivers and there must have been plenty of change during these courses. Plenty of changes have occurred but one thing that has never changed during these courses is the presence of the same sort of childhood memories that have been accumulated with all of us and still continues to be there.

During these times, most of our school friends have united for a complete get together at Rourkela and then probably at Tensa for some time so that we could see each other and greet each other after such a prolonged time. Lots of things must have changed during these 25 years of time but only one thing that has never ever been changed should have been the same sort of childhood memories of all of us that continues to be evolved and continue to stay forever.

Tensa get together, where the school is situated have not been clearer, but get together at Rourkela is now confirmed. It was for me the very last time confirmation and for this, I could not book the train for this and for this I continue to go with the bus from my native place of Puri and there is a direct bus service from Puri to Rourkella. In the last few years, there has been a sea change in the approaches of how the roaming of the bus should have been on these routes.

Now, there have been sleepers inside the bus and most of these buses are fully air-conditioned and that makes the journey extremely comfortable. For such a journey of over eight hours with air-conditioned and sleeper that should help us to be staying with super comfort for entire courses of the journey for sure.

Radhika Regency, Rourkela
Radhika Regency, Rourkela

I reached at Sarathi bus which runs from Bhubaneswar to Rourkela and leaves Puri at five pm and my sleeper number is five and then I reached there, and it is extremely comfortable. That is wider sleeping space with an air-conditioned ventilator at the top of it and it has been two in size to render it most comfortable at that point. There has been a nice presence of stairs cases out there where easily and most comfortable I could rise to the sleeper and there have been no difficulties in reaching there.

The journey was super relaxing, with first class air condition working and the resting time was cool and wonderful. With the provision of closing the windows pane with windows mat, it became extremely convenient for me to sleep for some time as I know in the next day meeting with so many friends after such a difference of time but still, the joy of meeting them reminds me for their absolute presence.

With complete air-conditioned facilities and the speed of the bus are good and especially nice after crossing the Cuttack bus station and that reminds me of better facilities or same to same facilities just like that of a first-class railway journey. In between nearer to Cuttack railway station, the conductor asked for the ticket and he checked it and then I closed the windows mat and then began to eat the foods which I took from home and then took some water and then bring out the earphone and then put it the other side into music player and then I try hard to get into sleeping.

In the meantime when the bus reaches nearer to Cuttack bus station, my phone rang and it was from Ranjeet Pattnaik and he was telling me about from which location I should be getting down so that it should be super convenient for all of us to reach nearer to Hotel Basera where our rooms are booked.

I reached nearer to Sector 2 and from there, I hired one shared auto that took me nearer to hotel Basera for ten rupees and then I slowly walked to the other side of the road and move towards the sideward road to reach towards it and then at the front of it I saw the Hotel Regency International and then at the left side I moved to this hotel Basera.

Just at the front of Hotel Basera, I saw, two or three persons have been standing there and from the distance, I could recognize them as Rana, Bibhuti, Manoj Rath and Rajesh Mahapatra and that reminds me of my childhood days.

From their appearances and the facial structure it is imminent and construed that they were the same person and the states of happiness and the confidences from which the sharpness of the same set up and wonderful presence comes upon so many times reminds me of the same sort of childhood days that has been there as if still to date.

It was one of delightful get-together. We all reached to the room number 304 of this hotel and inside of it Uttam already there reached from Bhubaneswar and we all have a tremendous time at that juncture with complete smiling all a crosses and everyone was looking at each other quite closely and trying hard to remember the childhood days. It was a small but nice room with good air conditioning all around and presents with such and such wonderful presentations of conveniences and gestures that make the entire surroundings one of brilliant place to live in.

The climate of Rourkela is comparatively respectable if we see the amount of perspiration and humidities inside Puri climate. Puri my native place is surrounded from most sides by sea provides ample shreds of evidence of the presence of the amount of humidity that makes the 34 temperature feels like near to 50.

For me the temperature of Rourkela is good and nice and it does feel some sort of coolness for me and we reached to the room and then I went for refresh and after some time the other entire presented childhood friends suggested for moving to a nearby site for taking up tea out there.

It was one of the places nearer to the square where many steel plant workers tend to unite there and have the tea and snacks and we get there and then after some time we reached the hotel and stayed there for some time. Uttam, Manoj all have been there and we talked and talked as there have been 25 years of gap in between our school life and the present life and there have been many things to talk with all of us and the series of conversations moved thereon.

We all talked about our respective professions and continue to talk about this for some time and then the presence of the flurry of my classmates comes to meet with all of us with complete eagerness and enthusiasms. In the meantime flurry of childhood friends reached and prominent among them are the Gada, Manoj Sathpathy, Siba, Debashish, Ranjeet Pattnaik and many others and the get together should be at Subham International and it was a walkable distance from there on.

We all moved with respective bikes and then reached there which is hardly a 100 to 200 meter walk able distance. We reached at the first floor and the room was a wide area with a larger gathering could be there comfortably. There were three waiters waiting to serve food and break fast. Slowly all total 25 to 30 classmates are reached. Most of them were eager to meet me and Uttam reaching out to classmates after 25 and 15 years and this should have been one of most anticipated getting together ever.

There have been smiles all around everywhere and plenty of great attention towards all of us and everyone, is talking about how Atanu and Abhi missed the bus and some have been very interested in talking about childhood days and the most wonderful moments thereafter. Every one were happy and reeling into momentous presence in which we are in and we are just contemplating about our childhood memories and how we have been very happier with each and every days and continue to find more and more strategically wonderful time and we are very much thankful for the present time and ours luck to be united all over again.

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